Back??

I am again getting the same feeling...the feeling that I need to run away from all the ppl.....
Just not get back to them.....just be away for sometime....
But unlike the last time...this time I feel likekeeping this feeling to myslef and not publicizing it ..like iI did last time...lezzc...
Guess it was a gud thing to not to tell ppl yet that I am back......coz I dont know wen I ever will be..and for how long.......
Sometimes I wonder what will happen to me.. i am such a psycho.. but then I guess it's ok.. :o)

November Rain

Listening to November Rain again.... and it kind of feels funny....dunno why...
I remember the same song used to make me feel so much pain and so much ecstasy at the same time that I used to listen to it for hours at a stretch...but now....it feels so empty....dunno why..
Is it coz I am finally free..?? free of all my emotional baggage..or is it something more that I just don't understand???
Or is it coz the part of my soul that had feelings has died?? and I am a living corpse???
Dunno wot is wot....all is way too confusing and somehow I dont want to spend too much time trying to find an answer to this....am afraid that I willend up in the same visious circle I sacrificed so much to get out of......
Just want to live each day as it is just that.....don't want too much excitement or too much of sorrow..just simple day.....
At times that is what i need..and that is what i have....but guess can never be happy in what I get... :o)

Is this Heaven...

Guess am back in my own personal Heaven...after so many months of being on earth and struggling to get out of hell.....
So wots my personal piece of heaven like??
Well..a sexy song...on full blast on my earphones...sexy weather outside ( read rainy ) ..and that's all i need...
I feel as if I am flying...if I just close my eyes..I wud be flying in nothingnes...no walls no sun..just emptiness...where I can open my wings and fly.....and just listen to the sound of music.......
That's my Personal heaven..... :o)
Have been listening to too many songs lately and watching too many movies.....and I realize that this is what gives me peace......it gives me a peace of mind like no other.......I can forget everything for those few hrs/mins and that is all i want in life......
Some songs give u a different feeling altogether...like Kandisa..the one I am hearing now....
I feel as if I am just floating on the waves....as they come and go..and th sea is endless and I am floating with no fear..coz I have nowhere to go....just float is my aim......and I do just that.....
Have had so many interesting incidents over the past month or so..that I need to blog them here..but willdo wen I get a net connection next month....yup..
Till then.....will hold my peace :o)